English: Icon of the Resurrection

English: Icon of the Resurrection (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I fought off a cold, finished my cousin’s video project…and then fought off an allergy attack. Figures. With things the way they’ve been lately Easter managed to sneak up on me, so I didn’t get any clutter clearing done…and I’m getting tired of writing that. I need to get into a pattern where I get all my projects done and still have some free time to relax. While the projects were created to get things off of my chest and have some fun, I find that the biggest clutter is in my schedule, in making time for everything. I think I’ve become lethargic. I was so used to a 9-3 (later 10-3) schedule that the next two owners screwed that up and pushed me out of my patterns, then never really let me get back into them. That would be fine if it improved me somehow, but I think the opposite occurred.

I’m a person of patterns, and I need to get back into habits that make me productive again. Is it possible? This is Easter, where we honor the resurrection of Jesus from death! If death itself can be overcome, I think resurrecting my life patterns should be easier. I’m happy to have the time to create, but I’m not used to it and so many things have put me into a slump that I’ve been in for over a year now. I have a schedule in mind that should get all of my article, video, and comic work done, including projects for this site in the first two areas. (If I had a good idea for a clutter-related comic I’d consider it.) I keep writing this too, but this time it’s the goal I want to push myself to succeed at.

I think God is sending me a message as well, since I keep finding myself walking into new creative projects by others as well as motivational speeches to not give up on dreams, pursue your goals, and not ones that sound phony. It’s where I feel pushed and the only barrier I have besides the lethargy is money to pay my bills and upgrade my various equipment and tools. I need to push back against what’s holding me back, get work done on projects and get this clutter out of my way so I have the room to do so. If I keep writing this enough times, saying it enough times, I’m hoping I’ll actually do it and finally get everything in my life in order. I’ve been blockaded far too long and I’m not giving up. Jesus didn’t give up even in death, preaching to the vary souls in Hell while awaiting his return to life, and continued to save souls when he was resurrected and does so even now from Heaven. This is what I believe as a Christian (I will not apologize for my beliefs but I think I need this right now so forgive me if this is now what your used to on this site) and what I need to start living instead of just saying and writing. I hope all of you, regardless of faith, have a  happy Easter and never give up what your heart drives you to, using your mind to reach those goals. I also hope the same for myself.

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